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28 March 2015 @ 01:12 pm
This was inspired by twissie who once made a similar post. However, because I've had a ton of celebrity crushes and I am not one to limit my babbling content, my list will be significantly longer. And still there are some people missing from here, too.

Men and women included! I have no limits! I've also tried to put them in chronological order by placing them in age groups that somewhat reflect my 'progression'.

(As you may be able to see, it has taken me six months to complete this post. I do not kid around with my LJ post projects.)

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All in all I think it's a fun mix of people. Do I need to finish this post somehow? Uh... Celeb crushes are awesome!
23 March 2015 @ 12:04 am
I've had this file for a few months now where I've been typing down my opinions on all TV shows that I remember being somehow important to me, and I've wanted to keep a list of my favourite shows as well. However, the order of the ranking keeps changing, so what I'd like to do here is first post the ranking at the top (which is relatively easy to edit), and then in alphabetical order discuss the shows included on the list. That is also where I attempt to explain why a show was influential to me, why it is ranked as high or low as it is, and why I enjoyed it. (I haven't found a service online where I could easily drag posts up and down in this ranking type of purpose, so this is what I'll have to do.)

So here we go:

My favourite TV shows as of 10/17:
* means that I haven't seen all of the show (it is still airing or I'm behind), so its ranking might still significantly change

06/17 edits: The Affair, Rectify, Westworld, Agents of SHIELD, Mr. Robot, The Leftovers, OZ
10/17 edits: Buffy, Twin Peaks, Better Call Saul, House of Cards, The Defenders, OITNB, The Americans, Mindhunter

To be edited (because did not finish yet): Six Feet Under, Twin Peaks, The Handmaid's Tale

1. The Wire
2. Buffy the Vampire Slayer
3. ER
4. Lost
5. Mad Men
6. Better Call Saul*
7. Freaks and Geeks
8. The Americans*
9. Survivor*
10. Fringe
11. Breaking Bad
12. House of Cards*
13. The Leftovers
14. The Sopranos
15. Twin Peaks*
16. Westworld*
17. Black Mirror*
18. Mindhunter*
19. Vikings*
20. Rectify*
21. Fargo*
22. Jessica Jones*
23. Orange is the New Black*
24. Generation Kill
25. OZ
26. The Affair*
27. Luke Cage*
28. The Fall
29. Daredevil*
30. Top of the Lake*
31. Les Revenants*
32. Boardwalk Empire
33. The Good Wife
34. Agent Carter*
35. Bad Girls
36. Popular
37. Stranger Things*
38. The Defenders
39. Orphan Black*
40. Broadchurch*

Honorable mention of shows I haven't finished or plan on finishing, but were influential/enjoyable to me, not in any order:
Ally McBeal
Judging Amy

Disappointments/on hold: shows that I LOVED at some point, but ended up giving up on (explanations for these are also below):

Marvel's Agents of SHIELD*
Game of Thrones*
Mr. Robot*
True Blood
The Walking Dead*
Criminal Minds*
True Detective*
American Horror Story*

Also for those curious, my "shows to watch still" list:
Wentworth, Battlestar Galactica, X-files, Southland, Band of Brothers, Six Feet Under, Firefly, Deadwood, Friday Night Lights, Wonderfalls, Kings, Dead Like Me, American Gothic (for creepy), Twin Peaks, Utopia, The River <- "creepy" ones, Halt and Catch Fire, My So Called Life, Justified, Person of Interest, The Handmaid's Tale

I've started watching (but hopelessly behind): Wentworth, BSG, X-files (selected episodes), Firefly (pilot), Six Feet Under, Twin Peaks

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02 January 2015 @ 05:55 pm
There are SO MANY new members debuting in H!P this year, it's nuts and amazing. As a fangirl I'm taking this moment to review them a bit.

Today was announced a new 8-member unit of trainees; it doesn't have a name yet.

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Country GirlsCollapse )

ANGERME (Smileage) new membersCollapse )

Morning Musume 12th generationCollapse )

So that's TWENTY new H!P members debuting in 2015 and they're all cute!! LOL

Things are so weird and exciting at the same time. I can never quit this fandom because I want to see these kids shine.
07 December 2014 @ 10:01 pm
A bit early this time!

In winter-spring I went back to the same job I'd had last year at a skiing centre, but I had changed some. I actually yelled at my coworkers for being lazy bastards. I, afraid to ever speak up shirenu, raised my voice to early 20-something guys, telling them to start cleaning up instead of flapping their gums. The strangest thing to happen. I wish this side of me had existed a year ago because those folks also deserved to be yelled at... But you live, you learn. And no, I don't believe that yelling is a suitable way of communicating generally, but I'm only taking baby steps at really communicating at all, and I think yelling is better than not saying anything. If I'd learned to yell last year, maybe this year I would have developed a better way of getting others to do their job. But it is what it is.

The great news is that throughout the spring I continued to get encouraging feedback from the professor whom I'd had emailed about applying for grad school with a video game research topic, and if you've read my previous entry you will find out that I was accepted and have by now moved to Jyväskylä, my uni city. I'm excited and nervous. I've only been here for a week and the loneliness is getting to me a bit already. I don't know anyone here. My study supervisor is super lovely and eager to introduce me to everyone, so maybe in time I'll develop some kind of level of comfort where I can talk to people with confidence and maybe even develop friendships, but until then I'll just have to push through somehow. Since I don't have knowledge of funding for an entire year yet, I can't even plan on getting cats now, and having cats would do so much to increase my level of happiness, seriously. The moment I learn about receiving a scholarship, should I be lucky enough to get one, I'm picking up some cats. Duncurr. I need life in my life. So I guess my goal for 2015 is cats.

I had somewhat planned on going abroad twice this year, but my grad school preparations sort of messed that up. So I ended up "only" going to Singapore in May, which was really cool, but I wish I could enjoy things more in the moment instead of musing after the fact. Either way, I met mal, Estrea and xyish for the first time in person; had some delicious food; felt what it's like to live in a super hot country; woke up every morning to ritual music from a Hindu temple across the street; saw trees and plants that don't exist in Finland; went to an entirely manufactured beach, which to a Finn sounds nuts to even exist; learned to navigate Singaporean subways and underground malls; saw Peter Dinklage in person at a X-men pre-release red carpet (didn't meet him, but oh well); bought a lovely flower dress that I think will be a favourite for a long time to come; saw many different kinds of people from different cultural backgrounds, which is not something you get to experience in Pello, Finland. I think this will be a trip I'll look back on thinking "huh! How odd that I did something like this, too!" in a good way.

Most importantly, I started checking out some indie games this year, and one pre-release game: Starbound, Papers Please, Gone Home, Thomas Was Alone, SteamWorld Dig. So enjoyable to just play a simple game that isn't necessarily about saving the world, for a change. Of course I still love my epic games as well. The past few weeks/months I've got back into Lotro again, and I played Skyrim a lot this year. The indies, I think, have made me feel that magic of video games in a fresh way, however, so I think I will increasingly look for those types of games on PC.

And I'm still playing Sims 2. Sims 3, not so much. Not getting Sims 4 any time soon, hopefully.

I caught up with The Good Wife and love it.

I finished watching all of Breaking Bad and even if I don't love it as much as people generally seem to, I still think it was a great and well-made show. Just too depressing for me at times, I think. I need a ray of hope.

Fargo and True Detective happened this year. I enjoyed Fargo more because it had more twisted humour and it had Molly. True Detective had some amazing scenes and acting, but in the end... I wasn't that turned on. I could hardly understand what was being said at times, and I wasn't thrilled that it felt like just another two white men show. An 'artistic' show like this shouldn't be afraid to push boundaries with its casting as well, but somehow it is, and I'm just... utterly bored.

Agents of SHIELD feels like it's only getting better, and I'm glad I've loved it since the beginning. :P I love the cast.

American Horror Story has, sadly, been pretty awful this time.

Boardwalk Empire finished and I feel content.

When it comes to reality tv, because of the amazing season of BBAU last year I gave a chance to Big Brother Australia again, but it fell flat in so many ways. Its airtime sucked, most tasks were lower grade repeats from last year, the housemates failed to capture my heart (I mostly connected with Priya, but for this BB format I think she was too seriously strategic), and it really felt like the production had given up. Of course, the season was crowned with an utterly forgettable winner, but luckily I had stopped watching weeks earlier. Sheesh.

I DID also end up watching all of Big Brother Canada 2 and loved the cast and how the game progressed. I think BBCAN has less main show air time than BBAU, but I still felt that they did a better job at showcasing everyone's personalities. They can't edit a strategic BB like Survivor, since they don't know the winner before-hand, but the winner still needs to have a storyline for the viewers to feel satisfied, right? So I think that's why they would wisely give everyone some screen time early on. On a popularity contest BB like BBUK or BBAU they don't have as much pressure for being fair in the editing room, because whoever is popular or hated is basically whoever the producers decide to show, and strategy inside the house is almost completely irrelevant. ANYWAY. Yay to BB Canada, and I hope that BBCAN3 this spring is as good and not a disappointment like BBAU was! I hate getting into something new only to be disappointed!

I watched Survivor this year, too, and Cagayan was a pretty great season. The current one has been a bit slow, but I really like Natalie. Like, I hardly ever even have favourites on Survivor, but Natalie to me is awesome. I hope she wins.

Hello! Project
I love Morning Musume.

Sayumi graduated a little less than two weeks ago, so officially no members remain from when I became a fan. It's a little weird, but exciting as well. Sayumi was special, though. The idol of idols.

I have to post this now because it's getting late...
23 November 2014 @ 02:07 pm
First of all, LOL at my previous post with a schedule posted and all... No, I'm not sticking to any schedules. That lasted pretty much until the meeting. And it was predictable that it would only last a while. But I think it's okay for now! I've been able to polish my research plan and send out scholarship applications. I keep finding new material and poking my brain with whether it will be useful to me or not.

But what I'm excited about now is moving to Jyväskylä. I found out I got a 3-month starter scholarship, which basically supports 3 months of research and in practice makes it possible for me to move over. My future apartment, which I went to check a bit over a week ago, will be available to me December 1st; it's somewhat small, but still bigger than I perhaps expected or feared. The bathroom in particular is more than just a tiny box, and the bedroom is separated by a sliding door from the living area with a tiny kitchen corner. And there's a balcony.

I'm excited about a lot of things that moving to a city and moving to my own place has to offer for me.

- Studies: I will be able to access all sorts of study materials, meetings, and of course CLASSES that I wasn't able to access before.

- Social events: Of course, going to events doesn't mean I'll actually manage to talk to people there, but just knowing there will be various events where there will likely be people with similar interests is pretty exciting. I mean, try to find people interested in game studies, East-Asian cultures, media studies, geek/fantasy events, maybe gender-related or feminist events, in a tiny town like Pello? It's just not happening. Instead of going out, all I could do was google and read online about things I was interested in. Now I could go out to places and sort of feel things in the air instead. I will keep my ears and eyes open for any events that I might be able to attend.

- Daily or almost daily exercise in the form of walking. The uni and nearest supermarket of my preference are both approx. 2km away from my apartment and in opposite directions, so if I were to visit both on the same day, that alone would be like 8km walking in one day. Wowza. (There's a shady little grocery shop on my way to uni that I could take advantage of for "emergencies", but if I have access to my fav market I would prefer to go there.) There are buses in the city, yes, but it can get pretty expensive to use them regularly, so I think I'll save money by not even learning the bus routes until there comes a time that I absolutely must take advantage of one. And yeah I do not have a driving licence or own a car so laziness/convenience in that way is not a possibility.

- I could get cats! I made sure when applying for apartments that pets would be allowed. Pretty much my #1 dream in getting my own place has always been to get cats. I might consider the option of fostering cats before deciding on giving a 'forever home', if it's possible. While foster cats might end up staying for even over a year in my place (if no suitable home is found for them), I still wouldn't need to worry about possibly not being able to look after them for the next 15 years. I might be really poor in the future and no cats should suffer for it. I know I'd probably be heart-broken when the cats left to their new home, but at the same time it's a moment of pride and happiness, right? Like thanks to me, that cat isn't dead or caged up somewhere, but had a caring temporary home. Anyway, these are things I will have to think about more once I've actually settled in.

- My apt. will have very fast Internet available for quite a low price for me; Internet is included in the rent, but a significantly faster speed will only be 5e a month for me (at least for the first year) so I'm rather certain I'll go for it. I'm a geek who needs speed.

- Being able to change my diet completely. I'll aim to cook my own food to save money and to be a bit healthier lol. If things go as planned, I'll be eating much more veggies and fruits than currently, and much less meat (because meat can actually be kind of expensive) and chocolate and sweets. I'm not going full vegetarian, but I'm definitely interested in going towards that direction. Basically I'll be able to eat stuff I can't eat here with my parents because they don't eat what I make, yet I have to eat what they make so it won't go to waste, so I end up not really making things because then MY things would go to waste. If that makes sense. If I'm in control of all the food, I can decide to eat this certain mixed mess of a food for 3 days in a row without worrying about someone entering the room like "I've got potatoes peeled and ready on the stove ^_^" and having to choose to throw one option in the trash. So yeah. And since I will be in a city, if I manage to save money somewhere else, I can sometimes splurge on eating out. There's an Asian restaurant on the far opposite edge of the centre that I tested twice when I visited Jyväskylä and totally approve of their food, so if I went there I'd sort of manage to burn calories while going there, stuff my face joyfully, and suffer and burn calories on my way back. Sounds good amirite.

- I can sing and dance whenever and maybe even record gaming videos. I'm one of those people who isn't even comfortable singing in front of their parents, so I'm looking forward to having that sweet privacy. I could even sleep naked, holy shit (maybe not if I have cats. LOL).

- And just general stuff about having space for myself, not having to share a bathroom but be able to fill it with my products, etc. The little things!

I don't mean to sound ungrateful, of course. Living with my parents during my long periods of unemployment has probably saved me from deep depression and even deeper isolation that I've experienced now. I've had people to talk to every day even if I haven't had much to tell. The reason why I've fallen out of contact with so many old IRL friends is that I felt kinda ashamed I didn't really have anything exciting to report on and didn't know what to do with my life, had no plans, etc. It's stressful to talk to others during times like that because other people always seem like they know what they're doing and so it becomes easier to just avoid those situations when you yourself are lost. Why embarrass yourself further? So I am thankful that I have parents that aren't kicking me out of the house because I've been an unemployed loser. But I am glad to be heading out finally and I think they are glad as well.
27 August 2014 @ 10:55 pm
Hello old friend, (LJ)

I was accepted into grad school, only I have to start my studies long distance because I'm not getting any kind of funding right now and so there's no point in me moving yet, unless I want to lose all my money on rent and food. lol

But my days are kind of like this now:
8am - wake up, catch up with the Internet for 15-20 minutes, stretch and exercise for 15-20 mins, have breakfast. (I have to do the exercise in the morning or I won't do it at all. Tested and proven true.)
9-9:30am - start doing research
around 12 - 1:30pm lunch, getting asked by mom to do random stuff (this may continue throughout the day, but oh well), possibly groceries
4-5pm - end research unless whatever my goal for the day was isn't finished yet; I was once typing till 7pm because I got interrupted so many times during the day. lol
After that, Skyrim and watching The Sopranos. :D Bed at midnight.

All my other hobbies have kind of taken a back seat. But it's ok.

It's kind of weird to have self-induced structure in my days, now. I've always tried this shit when I was unemployed etc... But never stuck to it because, I guess, what's the point? But now I have a mentor whom I need to continuously convince that my shit is good, and I'll have to convince even more people if I want financial support for my work. Nobody's telling me to wake up at 8am. I could still be lying in bed till 10am and getting out of my room at 11 and consider myself ready for life at noon. But it just feels proper to give this thing some respect. Also, I used to need to take naps every day, and I haven't taken a single nap since I started getting up at 8am. Weird, yet pretty amazing o-o

But I've only had this rhythm for like a week now and there were already times when I felt stress seeping in. I think it's because I was given three huge tasks to work on until my next Skype meeting with my mentor (which is tomorrow) so I felt the deadline coming closer and it annoyed me tremendously that I had to spend time sewing curtains shorter (cuz otherwise I would've had to listen to my mom whining about it and taking forever in doing it, which would have been even worse) and having to do other random stuff when I still felt I had so much left to do and I couldn't be in peace in my own room just focusing on it. It's almost like I forgot that I'm going to be working on this project for at least four years and don't have to do everything right away. But then earlier today I figured that I've worked hard and have managed to achieve quite a bit, as long as I can convince my mentor about my plan I've earned just a little breather. I guess now I just need to worry about being able to communicate my ideas effectively because I am a rather poor talker.

That feeling of being able to let go when I realized how much I had actually managed to do was pretty awesome. Of course, this is only a research plan so the actual work is only ahead of me, but one step at a time, ok? I had to re-do my entire research plan from scratch because I decided on a game and phenomenon that I'm going to be studying (as well as a possible methodology to use), while previously my plan was incredibly vague. And being able to do this meant I had to do a lot of research: find out if my idea was plausible, if anyone else had studied it before, or something similar, where in the world of academic research my study could be located, etc. It was a lot.

It's rather strange - I don't really think that much of myself generally, always thinking that others are smarter and wittier and more talented and charming etc. But when it comes to certain things, I think I expect a lot from myself. There's a certain standard. Like there's no way I could have joined that Skype meeting tomorrow knowing I haven't tried my best in working on the three given tasks, even if even my mentor admitted it was a lot to do. No, I want to know for myself that I've worked hard, even if it doesn't show in my actual presentation - I need to know it for myself.

But yeah, that's my life right now :3
16 June 2014 @ 05:50 pm
This is my epic review of current Hello! Project trainees. It has taken me about a week to put all aspects of it together (watching videos, listening to recordings, collecting pictures and editing them, writing and rewriting my evalutations after each step) so hell yeah I'm posting dis shit.

H!P trainees = girls training to debut one day as Japanese idols in Hello! Project, which is the umbrella term for groups produced by Tsunku and managed by Up Front. Also known as MY FAVS. Most of the trainees are very young and have a long way to becoming skilled enough to debut, but I've always enjoyed trying to guess which ones will play a part in H!P's future and also supporting them in an auntie manner. You know how in many talent shows, the audition part is the most entertaining part? Keeping an eye on H!P trainees is like witnessing a never-ending audition. And when they succeed, there's a feeling of pride and genuine joy.

In the process of making this post I've spent way more time learning about each trainee than I normally do, so I'm currently in a proud mama hen state of mind and my heart is bursting with love for these little puppies who just want to sing happy songs to everyone.

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I gave the girls a ranking concerning looks and voice because it's more dynamic than just babbling about it. No ranking for dancing because I haven't seen enough of everyone to determine that, and I'm not really good at evaluating dancing, anyway. First, here is what I mean by my looks and voice rankings...

Top tier: Is cute enough to have already been featured in extra magazine photo shoots and/or is likely to be featured in such in the future; if she lacks in other skills, she could still debut in a group as a 'visual' member (like Akari Uemura of Juice=Juice) thanks to her strong look.
Great: Almost top tier and might become top tier in the future, very cute.
Good: Is cute, but that side of her isn't especially promoted (no extra magazine shoots etc.); would have to fight for attention with her talent or character when next to top tier looking girls.
Unordinary: Doesn't have a typical Japanese idol look or isn't what is traditionally considered cute in a Japanese idol; this can go either way when it comes to popularity (sometimes unconventional looking girls do really well and sometimes not), which is why I can't rank it as 'good' or 'bad'.

Here is the obligatory explanation of how most of even the best Japanese idol singers would not be considered 'good vocalists' in the West, so expectations are rather different and nobody is even pretending that any of these girls could rival belting singers like Christina Aguilera or Mariah Carey. They are, however, still expected to convey the emotion and message of each song, hit notes and be pleasant to listen to.

Top tier: Is reliable and could vocally rival current leads of already established Hello! Project groups; maybe even has the potential to pass them.
Good: Mostly sings on tune and has a pleasant or unique voice, but has some polishing to do.
OK: Unstable, but obviously not tonedeaf, thus merely needs more practise and focus.
Trainwreck: Misses many notes, may even get completely off-key. Needs a whole lot of work done.

It's a bit of a boring choice, but I shall put the members in the same order that they are on the official Hello! Project site: the order of joining trainees + age. So the members I evaluate first have been around the longest and the ones near the bottom are newbies.

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12 February 2014 @ 02:52 pm
I played with some make-up today, so let's talk about make-up!

I've noticed that there are some things that I always hold on to with make-up these days, so I figured I'd think a little bit about where it all comes from. That I know of :3

1. Eyebrows. If you know how I look, you may or may not have noticed that I let my brows roam free.

Run, caterpillars! Run!

Well, I've always been rather lazy about tending to my brows (and used to think that Bjork, for example, looked amazing with her natural brows), but finally in 2008 I found a justification for this in Kpop. Even if Kpop idols have more groomed brows than me, filled in with make-up as well, they do tend to look rather thick and 'natural' in comparison to what I see on American TV shows or on Jpop idols. There's a lot about Kpop beauty that I don't like (plastic surgery, fillers, creepy strive for perfection, freckles and moles hidden, everyone having straight teeth and straight everything which ends up downplaying and destroying uniqueness), but this is one thing that I aesthetically like a lot. So basically, I guess I figured that since I like strong brows on others, I should also stick to keeping my own thick brows.

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02 January 2014 @ 01:52 pm
A bit late this time... Oop

This year I went to Japan for the second time to stalk Morning Musume's spring concert tour. I was able to attend four Morning Musume concerts as well as a H!P kenshuusei event and a Juice=Juice 'high touch' event :3 Idols ♥ I went to both Tokyo and Osaka and it was quite awesome. Would consider doing the same thing again. The only bad thing is that my body was pretty nuts during most of the trip. I had no appetite, needed to sit down a lot feeling tired, eyes went dry and started to hurt etc. I ended up returning to my hotel room quite early each day. I also really started to grow tired of feeling like there were old Japanese men staring at me mistaking me for younger than I am. I'd really like to be able to chat with people closer to my age, ya know. Anyway, I also managed to meet Manamin, TDuck and fushi (T__T) during this trip, so that was great! I think I should give a special mention to Minoo where I went for a walk because that place was absolutely stunning. I LOVE TREES. I also loved the train ride to Kyoto, looking out the window.

It may also count as travels that I spent a month working in Saariselkä in December. Lapland isn't that new to me, living in Pello, but Saariselkä did look like winter wonderland all the time I was there while the rest of Finland was getting rain... So that was great. It felt a bit like going from Lapland to Lapland+++.

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Aha I've pretty much stopped following Berryz Kobo and C-ute, and only listen to S/mileage singles once or twice D: But Morning Musume and Juice=Juice (new unit!) I'm still very much down with. Momusu had an awesome year with their electronic sound and Juice=Juice is releasing sort of Tsunku retro songs, so they're refreshing to listen to with the disco vibes and whatnot. Totally LOVED seeing them gals live in spring and being able to see Reina before her graduation (she does shine on stage). I would pay myself sick over and over again for a chance to attend another concert or event. I love Morning Musume.

I think I've grown tired of 'perfection' and the obvious sexual objectification in Kpop MVs. There's nothing fresh about Kpop to me anymore. There were a few good and fun music releases: Brown Eyed Girls and IU of course, Ladies' Code seems like the best new group and Spica is always love. Lee Hi, too ♥ But most of it left me unimpressed and bored, both music and the videos. More than anything though, what a disappointment of a year when last year I felt things were becoming exciting musically and I was really looking forward to 2013! No no, just an utter disappointment.

But yeah. I'm tired of the 'perfect' styling, the perfect make-up and lighting, the same facial features and body type being idolized and how fucking predictable everything is. You would think that someone dyeing their hair bright red would be something to take note of, but Kpop has done it so much that it's just another Tuesday, now. Every girl group MV has the same dance moves of look at my butt and boobs, I can't even watch them anymore. I'm just utterly tired. I'll probably keep checking again this year for new releases that I might like, but the passion is pretty much gone.

I got my new fucking amazing computer at the beginning of this year. I haven't played that many demanding games, but everything does look prettier and work smoother so fuck yeah. I got into Fallout 3 and Fallout: New Vegas this year. Dark and fun, lots of flying body parts. I still find Fallout:NV annoying at times, though, I just always feel that my weapons are useless. o-o So I haven't finished that one yet. I also started playing Skyrim 8) But I keep wanting to start a new game, which I definitely should not do because going through the same places again so soon is not a good idea. So I'm going to stick to my current khajiit mage for now... Yup. I also still did Left4Dead2 with fraaanns and rekindled interest in Terraria, as well. I haven't been playing Lord of the Rings Online as much because every time I play it it has to update and meh x'D Maybe this year.

And yes, I still play The Sims 2 and The Sims 3. Mah babies.

Holy crackwaffle I have watched so much this year.

I gave up on The Walking Dead and Homeland because I got tired of both, essentially. Well, tired of the characters. Can't watch a show if I don't love the characters, or at least love to hate them. I also decided not to watch the last season of Dexter because I read what happens and there's no way I'm going to waste time in witnessing that steaming pile of shit. LOL Sorry but there was exactly one reason why I stuck with that show even through rough patches and that one reason does not get the respect she deserves during the last season. I think Dexter should've died a long time ago and it would've been a better show.

I FINISHED WATCHING ALL OF ER! I'm still working on writing about my favourite characters haha. But yes, what a lovely show, my #3 all-time show and I still can't believe that it's actually over and I can't continue to see what's happening over there right now. Ahhh ahh nuts.

I lost a bit of interest in BWE and Mad Men (again), but still watched all of them of course. I guess I'll stick with them out of loyalty, but I don't see them cracking my all-time top 5 by the end.

I started watching Marvel's Agents of SHIELD for fun, and fun it has been... I see a lot of people dissing the show actually, but haha I like it! I like the characters, the show makes me giggle, but it also has drama and action - it's a nice hour of relaxation for me, a nice change of pace from the other shows I watch that can be quite drama filled.

I also love American Horror Story for disturbing fun. LOL It's just so over-the-top and amazing. But I actually do not like the main actress that everyone else thinks the show would die without. o-o She is actually TOO over-the-top for my tastes... Oh well!

I've been continuing Breaking Bad as well, which is just heart-breakingly brilliant at times. Started The Good Wife, which is great. Also started The Sopranos which I don't love yet and almost gave up on, but I think I'll keep watching it.

And this and that. OH! When it comes to reality TV... I know I had already given up on Big Brother as a format, but somehow I gave a chance to this year's season of Big Brother Australia and it was really good. Really really good. :3 It just left me with a good feeling instead of leaving me hating humanity, which is a nice change. Tim Dormer probably is the perfect Big Brother housemate. I also did watch Survivor this year.

All in all, a whole lot of television this year. But in return, I only saw about 5 movies all year. So I just spent no time on movies and all time on TV. LOL

Well, I had a job in winter-spring that was ok as a job, but because of my coworkers I ended up hating it. I felt so excluded that I actually bought a smart phone just so that I could use IRC at work to chat with friends because I felt so miserably alone there. Yeah. I'm supposed to go back to the same job now, but there should be different people now and I think I've gained more confidence from Saariselkä, so I'm hopeful that this time will be better.

After that I pretty much spent the summer trying to find some kind of a direction for my life. I hit some low points during this time, even after getting a part-time gig at a local motel receiving guests and cleaning - I just thought, is this what I went to university for? But what ended up saving me were I think two things... First, I was taking a web course called Online Games: Literature, New Media, and Narrative which was about Tolkien and Lord of the Rings Online and gave me the inspiration to perhaps go to grad school and pursue a video game topic of my own. (I almost gave up on this idea as well, but I've since received a somewhat encouraging email from a professor and if all goes well, I might be able to hold on to my topic and get started on continuing The Ways Of Knowledge!) Second, I got a job at Saariselkä which gave me something to prepare for and ended up being a great experience from the POV of meeting new people who actually don't hate me and treat me with respect. And I had to challenge myself a lot and also was able to do a lot, so in the end, the experience was very rewarding.

I'm actually looking forward to what 2014 has to bring and have a vague plan of things I could do. I'm supposed to have a job ready to go at least until the end of April (as soon as I can get some papers in to be able to start), I have plans for grad school, and if all else fails, I can consider doing volunteer work abroad bwahaha. But mostly I'd like to become a professional nerd, I suppose.

So that was 2013...
13 September 2013 @ 01:18 pm
It really does get to me how year after year people really fudge up their Big Brother success by making some really bad decisions that are relatively easy to avoid. Some things are definitely out of your control; if the editors don't think you're a part of a storyline relevant to their interests, your fanbase will probably not get a chance to grow and so you don't really have a chance of winning. But let's ignore uncontrollable things and differences in personality and focus on things that can be planned and controlled to some extent.

I'm talking here about Big Brother in which the audience chooses who is evicted and who wins, not Big Brother US.

And I'm also writing this to someone who isn't trying to be the villain of the season, obviously. This is for someone who's trying to win by being a decent human being. lol

#1 Try to be an exaggerated version of yourself. Basically, do not act or pretend to be someone else; merely boost the traits and aspects about yourself that are already there and have most likely been seen by your friends and/or family in the past. Often when we're around strangers or semi-strangers and know we're being watched we hold back, but on Big Brother you ought to do the opposite and shamelessly be yourself. Bravely tell those stupid jokes, open up and speak up if something bothers you. This way you're not being fake, but are still being more interesting than you normally might be.

#2 Try to be a floater. There are many risks to belonging to a specific group or clique. First of all, if you choose the wrong group (the one that the audience views as the big bad), you are guilty by association and the audience will want you gone even if you are merely a back-up to the group, not the leader. It really baffles me how every time certain housemates want to belong to the 'power' group inside the house... When it's been shown over and over again that the public loves underdogs, not cocky power players. If you find yourself in the cool kids club, it's time to get worried. Being safe from being nominated doesn't mean anything if the moment you are up, the public doesn't want to save you. It's a very short-sighted strategy. Floaters tend do well as long as they don't get cocky. There have also been underdogs who have realized that all their opponents are leaving, causing them to get over-confident, which in turn makes the audience lose interest in supporting them. So... Try to be a floater (or underdog), but don't get cocky when it's working!

#3 Try not to talk crap about people behind their backs! It's impossible to avoid it completely, but it's a huge problem if you spend a significant amount of time doing it. No viewer likes a gutless person who stabs people in the back. If you need to rant, the diary room is the best place for that not only because you won't end up looking like you're trying to influence others, but also because if you do it in a funny way, it's almost guaranteed screen time. However, if you keep doing this and never actually confront anyone it might end up working against you. So do try to be honest with people if something's bothering you. Which leads us to...

#4 Try not to throw hissy fits and tantrums - and if you do, APOLOGIZE and say you could've handled it better! Most likely there will be conflicts in the house, and that's fine. It's not bad to be involved in an argument; what matters is what you do afterwards. Will you stubbornly claim it's all the other person's fault, or be able to reflect on your own actions? The audience respects a person who can take responsibility, deal with a conflict like a rational adult and doesn't hold grudges. If you DO hold a grudge and can't help it, at least make it clear that you are trying. Note that you don't need to become best friends with the person after, just establish some level of respect. If they don't return it, it reflects badly on them and not you.

#5 Never ever comment on another housemate's appearance in an insulting way. It's a cheap shot and it won't make you look good, no matter how detestable the person you're talking about is. Some super popular housemates have gotten away with it, yes, but never assume that your popularity is high enough.

#6 No fake showmances. Most of the audience can see straight through it. It's ok to get a bit of affection, but never pretend it's more than it is. And for god's sake, be straight with the other person about where the relationship is at because you do not want to be the one leading someone on. The public will hate you for it.

#7 Screen time is important, so get involved. Even if it's something you don't really care about or want to do - that can be used as a storyline, too. Whenever someone suggests something to do, remember you're not on vacation and join in! It's also great if you can suggest something to do yourself. Give the editors something to work with.

#8 Don't be racist/homophobic/transphobic/sexist, don't cheat on your significant other, you know - the things that should be obvious, but for some reason aren't for all.

#9 It's good to have a rival inside the house, but if you end up having one, do not make too venomous comments about the person and do not try to turn a group of people against them. You do not want that person to become the underdog because that means you are the head of the dragon that the public will want to slay.

That's all I can think of for now, but basically yeah. These are things that tend to bother me when people do them year after year even if they end up cutting people's time short inside the house. :D