Sari
12 February 2014 @ 02:52 pm
I played with some make-up today, so let's talk about make-up!

I've noticed that there are some things that I always hold on to with make-up these days, so I figured I'd think a little bit about where it all comes from. That I know of :3

1. Eyebrows. If you know how I look, you may or may not have noticed that I let my brows roam free.


Run, caterpillars! Run!

Well, I've always been rather lazy about tending to my brows (and used to think that Bjork, for example, looked amazing with her natural brows), but finally in 2008 I found a justification for this in Kpop. Even if Kpop idols have more groomed brows than me, filled in with make-up as well, they do tend to look rather thick and 'natural' in comparison to what I see on American TV shows or on Jpop idols. There's a lot about Kpop beauty that I don't like (plastic surgery, fillers, creepy strive for perfection, freckles and moles hidden, everyone having straight teeth and straight everything which ends up downplaying and destroying uniqueness), but this is one thing that I aesthetically like a lot. So basically, I guess I figured that since I like strong brows on others, I should also stick to keeping my own thick brows.

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Sari
02 January 2014 @ 01:52 pm
A bit late this time... Oop

Travels
This year I went to Japan for the second time to stalk Morning Musume's spring concert tour. I was able to attend four Morning Musume concerts as well as a H!P kenshuusei event and a Juice=Juice 'high touch' event :3 Idols ♥ I went to both Tokyo and Osaka and it was quite awesome. Would consider doing the same thing again. The only bad thing is that my body was pretty nuts during most of the trip. I had no appetite, needed to sit down a lot feeling tired, eyes went dry and started to hurt etc. I ended up returning to my hotel room quite early each day. I also really started to grow tired of feeling like there were old Japanese men staring at me mistaking me for younger than I am. I'd really like to be able to chat with people closer to my age, ya know. Anyway, I also managed to meet Manamin, TDuck and fushi (T__T) during this trip, so that was great! I think I should give a special mention to Minoo where I went for a walk because that place was absolutely stunning. I LOVE TREES. I also loved the train ride to Kyoto, looking out the window.

It may also count as travels that I spent a month working in Saariselkä in December. Lapland isn't that new to me, living in Pello, but Saariselkä did look like winter wonderland all the time I was there while the rest of Finland was getting rain... So that was great. It felt a bit like going from Lapland to Lapland+++.

Hello! Project
Aha I've pretty much stopped following Berryz Kobo and C-ute, and only listen to S/mileage singles once or twice D: But Morning Musume and Juice=Juice (new unit!) I'm still very much down with. Momusu had an awesome year with their electronic sound and Juice=Juice is releasing sort of Tsunku retro songs, so they're refreshing to listen to with the disco vibes and whatnot. Totally LOVED seeing them gals live in spring and being able to see Reina before her graduation (she does shine on stage). I would pay myself sick over and over again for a chance to attend another concert or event. I love Morning Musume.

Kpop
I think I've grown tired of 'perfection' and the obvious sexual objectification in Kpop MVs. There's nothing fresh about Kpop to me anymore. There were a few good and fun music releases: Brown Eyed Girls and IU of course, Ladies' Code seems like the best new group and Spica is always love. Lee Hi, too ♥ But most of it left me unimpressed and bored, both music and the videos. More than anything though, what a disappointment of a year when last year I felt things were becoming exciting musically and I was really looking forward to 2013! No no, just an utter disappointment.

But yeah. I'm tired of the 'perfect' styling, the perfect make-up and lighting, the same facial features and body type being idolized and how fucking predictable everything is. You would think that someone dyeing their hair bright red would be something to take note of, but Kpop has done it so much that it's just another Tuesday, now. Every girl group MV has the same dance moves of look at my butt and boobs, I can't even watch them anymore. I'm just utterly tired. I'll probably keep checking again this year for new releases that I might like, but the passion is pretty much gone.

Gaming
I got my new fucking amazing computer at the beginning of this year. I haven't played that many demanding games, but everything does look prettier and work smoother so fuck yeah. I got into Fallout 3 and Fallout: New Vegas this year. Dark and fun, lots of flying body parts. I still find Fallout:NV annoying at times, though, I just always feel that my weapons are useless. o-o So I haven't finished that one yet. I also started playing Skyrim 8) But I keep wanting to start a new game, which I definitely should not do because going through the same places again so soon is not a good idea. So I'm going to stick to my current khajiit mage for now... Yup. I also still did Left4Dead2 with fraaanns and rekindled interest in Terraria, as well. I haven't been playing Lord of the Rings Online as much because every time I play it it has to update and meh x'D Maybe this year.

And yes, I still play The Sims 2 and The Sims 3. Mah babies.

Television
Holy crackwaffle I have watched so much this year.

I gave up on The Walking Dead and Homeland because I got tired of both, essentially. Well, tired of the characters. Can't watch a show if I don't love the characters, or at least love to hate them. I also decided not to watch the last season of Dexter because I read what happens and there's no way I'm going to waste time in witnessing that steaming pile of shit. LOL Sorry but there was exactly one reason why I stuck with that show even through rough patches and that one reason does not get the respect she deserves during the last season. I think Dexter should've died a long time ago and it would've been a better show.

I FINISHED WATCHING ALL OF ER! I'm still working on writing about my favourite characters haha. But yes, what a lovely show, my #3 all-time show and I still can't believe that it's actually over and I can't continue to see what's happening over there right now. Ahhh ahh nuts.

I lost a bit of interest in BWE and Mad Men (again), but still watched all of them of course. I guess I'll stick with them out of loyalty, but I don't see them cracking my all-time top 5 by the end.

I started watching Marvel's Agents of SHIELD for fun, and fun it has been... I see a lot of people dissing the show actually, but haha I like it! I like the characters, the show makes me giggle, but it also has drama and action - it's a nice hour of relaxation for me, a nice change of pace from the other shows I watch that can be quite drama filled.

I also love American Horror Story for disturbing fun. LOL It's just so over-the-top and amazing. But I actually do not like the main actress that everyone else thinks the show would die without. o-o She is actually TOO over-the-top for my tastes... Oh well!

I've been continuing Breaking Bad as well, which is just heart-breakingly brilliant at times. Started The Good Wife, which is great. Also started The Sopranos which I don't love yet and almost gave up on, but I think I'll keep watching it.

And this and that. OH! When it comes to reality TV... I know I had already given up on Big Brother as a format, but somehow I gave a chance to this year's season of Big Brother Australia and it was really good. Really really good. :3 It just left me with a good feeling instead of leaving me hating humanity, which is a nice change. Tim Dormer probably is the perfect Big Brother housemate. I also did watch Survivor this year.

All in all, a whole lot of television this year. But in return, I only saw about 5 movies all year. So I just spent no time on movies and all time on TV. LOL

Life
Well, I had a job in winter-spring that was ok as a job, but because of my coworkers I ended up hating it. I felt so excluded that I actually bought a smart phone just so that I could use IRC at work to chat with friends because I felt so miserably alone there. Yeah. I'm supposed to go back to the same job now, but there should be different people now and I think I've gained more confidence from Saariselkä, so I'm hopeful that this time will be better.

After that I pretty much spent the summer trying to find some kind of a direction for my life. I hit some low points during this time, even after getting a part-time gig at a local motel receiving guests and cleaning - I just thought, is this what I went to university for? But what ended up saving me were I think two things... First, I was taking a web course called Online Games: Literature, New Media, and Narrative which was about Tolkien and Lord of the Rings Online and gave me the inspiration to perhaps go to grad school and pursue a video game topic of my own. (I almost gave up on this idea as well, but I've since received a somewhat encouraging email from a professor and if all goes well, I might be able to hold on to my topic and get started on continuing The Ways Of Knowledge!) Second, I got a job at Saariselkä which gave me something to prepare for and ended up being a great experience from the POV of meeting new people who actually don't hate me and treat me with respect. And I had to challenge myself a lot and also was able to do a lot, so in the end, the experience was very rewarding.

I'm actually looking forward to what 2014 has to bring and have a vague plan of things I could do. I'm supposed to have a job ready to go at least until the end of April (as soon as I can get some papers in to be able to start), I have plans for grad school, and if all else fails, I can consider doing volunteer work abroad bwahaha. But mostly I'd like to become a professional nerd, I suppose.

So that was 2013...
 
 
Sari
13 September 2013 @ 01:18 pm
It really does get to me how year after year people really fudge up their Big Brother success by making some really bad decisions that are relatively easy to avoid. Some things are definitely out of your control; if the editors don't think you're a part of a storyline relevant to their interests, your fanbase will probably not get a chance to grow and so you don't really have a chance of winning. But let's ignore uncontrollable things and differences in personality and focus on things that can be planned and controlled to some extent.

I'm talking here about Big Brother in which the audience chooses who is evicted and who wins, not Big Brother US.

And I'm also writing this to someone who isn't trying to be the villain of the season, obviously. This is for someone who's trying to win by being a decent human being. lol

#1 Try to be an exaggerated version of yourself. Basically, do not act or pretend to be someone else; merely boost the traits and aspects about yourself that are already there and have most likely been seen by your friends and/or family in the past. Often when we're around strangers or semi-strangers and know we're being watched we hold back, but on Big Brother you ought to do the opposite and shamelessly be yourself. Bravely tell those stupid jokes, open up and speak up if something bothers you. This way you're not being fake, but are still being more interesting than you normally might be.

#2 Try to be a floater. There are many risks to belonging to a specific group or clique. First of all, if you choose the wrong group (the one that the audience views as the big bad), you are guilty by association and the audience will want you gone even if you are merely a back-up to the group, not the leader. It really baffles me how every time certain housemates want to belong to the 'power' group inside the house... When it's been shown over and over again that the public loves underdogs, not cocky power players. If you find yourself in the cool kids club, it's time to get worried. Being safe from being nominated doesn't mean anything if the moment you are up, the public doesn't want to save you. It's a very short-sighted strategy. Floaters tend do well as long as they don't get cocky. There have also been underdogs who have realized that all their opponents are leaving, causing them to get over-confident, which in turn makes the audience lose interest in supporting them. So... Try to be a floater (or underdog), but don't get cocky when it's working!

#3 Try not to talk crap about people behind their backs! It's impossible to avoid it completely, but it's a huge problem if you spend a significant amount of time doing it. No viewer likes a gutless person who stabs people in the back. If you need to rant, the diary room is the best place for that not only because you won't end up looking like you're trying to influence others, but also because if you do it in a funny way, it's almost guaranteed screen time. However, if you keep doing this and never actually confront anyone it might end up working against you. So do try to be honest with people if something's bothering you. Which leads us to...

#4 Try not to throw hissy fits and tantrums - and if you do, APOLOGIZE and say you could've handled it better! Most likely there will be conflicts in the house, and that's fine. It's not bad to be involved in an argument; what matters is what you do afterwards. Will you stubbornly claim it's all the other person's fault, or be able to reflect on your own actions? The audience respects a person who can take responsibility, deal with a conflict like a rational adult and doesn't hold grudges. If you DO hold a grudge and can't help it, at least make it clear that you are trying. Note that you don't need to become best friends with the person after, just establish some level of respect. If they don't return it, it reflects badly on them and not you.

#5 Never ever comment on another housemate's appearance in an insulting way. It's a cheap shot and it won't make you look good, no matter how detestable the person you're talking about is. Some super popular housemates have gotten away with it, yes, but never assume that your popularity is high enough.

#6 No fake showmances. Most of the audience can see straight through it. It's ok to get a bit of affection, but never pretend it's more than it is. And for god's sake, be straight with the other person about where the relationship is at because you do not want to be the one leading someone on. The public will hate you for it.

#7 Screen time is important, so get involved. Even if it's something you don't really care about or want to do - that can be used as a storyline, too. Whenever someone suggests something to do, remember you're not on vacation and join in! It's also great if you can suggest something to do yourself. Give the editors something to work with.

#8 Don't be racist/homophobic/transphobic/sexist, don't cheat on your significant other, you know - the things that should be obvious, but for some reason aren't for all.

#9 It's good to have a rival inside the house, but if you end up having one, do not make too venomous comments about the person and do not try to turn a group of people against them. You do not want that person to become the underdog because that means you are the head of the dragon that the public will want to slay.

That's all I can think of for now, but basically yeah. These are things that tend to bother me when people do them year after year even if they end up cutting people's time short inside the house. :D
 
 
Sari
I love TV shows and video games. They have completely slayed and buried movies as a form of entertainment for me, as I've only watched one movie this year. It's not that there aren't great movies... I just choose to spend my time and energy on these two media that really offer me what I'm after.

When it comes to television, I love witnessing the characters grow and learning to know the world and setting where the events are taking place. Ideally, each episode reveals something new about a character or furthers the main storyline. Noticed I said "or". Some of the best episodes on television I've seen are ones that have nothing to do with the main setting of the story, but focus on one of the characters from a different perspective. When badly done, these episodes feel like pure filler. When well done, they're the stories that really stay with you. Aren't some of the most memorable episodes of ER the ones that had at least a part of the main action happening outside the hospital?

I love becoming attached to characters and I love being sad if they are written out of the show. It means that the show has been successful in making me care.

I also love that television provides opportunities for such varied storytelling. When it comes to American TV, there's still a lot to complain about when it comes to presenting the country realistically (like how minorities can seem non-existent or ridiculously stereotypical), but from fantasy and science fiction settings to courtrooms, hospitals or a Chemistry teacher cooking meth... There are so many different stories to tell and television is able to take advantage of that. Movies can, as well, but movies are limited to a certain time limit, whereas television shows have entire seasons to complete story arcs.

Of course, extended time can also hurt the story. Many shows could profit from the show runners having the freedom to decide exactly how many seasons the show is going to run so that there is a plan for each season and how the story is going to end. Instead, we have the problem of filler episodes or even filler seasons when the makers themselves are unsure of how long the story will have to go on until the grand finale, having to come up with new storylines that aren't necessarily best for the show. (Lost comes to mind.) I think this is also part of the reason why television still has trouble reaching the same respect that movies do. It's difficult to plan a dynamic and complete work when you may have to add extra content between the core pieces. However, there are also shows that could, in theory, continue forever (see: ER), so this isn't the case for every show on television.

So, I suppose I have a love-hate relationship with American television. British television, for instance, has shorter seasons and provides the opportunity to release only one season of a show without it being considered a failure. Even there some shows feel like they are being dragged on unnecessarily (Downton Abbey) and some shows have a long lasting legacy (Doctor Who), but generally British television could be the perfect option to someone who feels movies are too short and American TV shows are too long. But I still end up watching all the American shows... And I suppose it's worth a mention that cable channels are releasing shorter season shows on the states side.

So, I love television for the extended time to spend with the story and characters as well as the variety in stories being told. How about video games?

The biggest difference between television and video games is that video games are interactive. You don't watch things happen to someone else; you experience things happening to your character. When I beat a tough battle in a video game I don't think "whoa, Commander Shepard is so boss!". I think "HELL YEAH! WHO'S THE BOSS! I'M THE BOSS!" You become a part of the story, even if following a linear storyline. When the game is an open world role playing game where your decisions have weight on how other characters view you and what kind of actions are even possible for you to make, the story becomes even more immersing. There are questlines where you may choose between killing an innocent person, persuading them or perhaps pick-pocketing them to complete the objective. And if you happen to later realize that a character didn't need to die for you to complete a quest, yet that's what happened... At least I feel stupid and disappointed and like I failed the quest, even if I was able to complete it. It's not just about the character's morality. It's also about deciding how far you're willing to take your character for a bit of gold and experience points. Of course, if you decide to play a villain, then killing innocent folk in the game is in character.

Admittedly, many video games don't even touch on this type of moral questioning and sometimes as a result of the game's linearity it's not properly possible. I also find it a failed tactic if a game blames you for violence, yet doesn't offer the option to do things differently. There are, however, games that offer options and I find them particularly rewarding. Solving a hostile situation by reasoning? There is nothing more badass than that.

Moreover, the world creation that takes place in video game production can be incredibly impressive. Creating entirely new histories to the human race (and others!), new technologies, ecosystems, belief systems, balances between natural and supernatural... These wonderfully detailed video game environments don't really get the praise they deserve considering the effort put in. In video games a story doesn't merely have to take place in a setting, but the setting can be a part of the story. You're not merely on a stroll in a garden, but you can choose to pick flowers and use them to make a potion, or if the garden is owned, you can make the decision to steal something. You make the story (at least parts of it) and the setting is a part of the story.

Video games can also have long, steadily progressing stories the same way that television series can. 15 hours isn't considered long for a linear video game; non-linear RPGs often provide 40+ hours worth content and some players can make a game last for over a 100 hours. (I have 155 hours on Fallout 3 Game of the Year Edition.) How long it takes one to complete a non-linear game depends on how many sidequests she is willing to do, if she's interested in collecting every possible rare item, how much she wants to explore and if she is willing to use fast travel options, among other things. Once you start counting in several playthroughs of the same game with possibly the same main story, but a different angle... A game like Skyrim could offer entertainment for hundreds of hours.

So, I love video games because they give me a chance to be the hero or anti-hero and immerse myself in an epic story which I am both the beginning and the end of. As with television series, there are several different worlds and settings available, further expanded by mods created by the gaming community. Watching a television series or playing a game is a process, not a completion in a single sitting. I love the journey which also makes the ending that much more satisfying.
 
 
Sari
05 July 2013 @ 02:41 pm
TV2  
Hey, I finished the first week of my planned TV watching - well, aside from Sunday because Internet was down (or rather, the USB slot I have connected to Internet stopped working and I only found out the next morning). So this means I didn't get to start The Sopranos or continue Battlestar Galactica.

All the new shows seemed very good in their own way (Nikita, Rectify, The Good Wife and Wentworth). It's a bit weird to start so many shows at once - is it possible to get attached to so many new characters in such a short span of time? But at least so far it's been fine.

Nikita is obviously more action-packed than pretty much any other show I'm watching now. I like that there appear to be many strong female characters; that already makes the show more interesting for me to watch than a penis comparing battle. I've also always been a sucker for this premise of training young folks to be, essentially, killing machines - and then someone trying to bring the system down. It creates a setting for an anti-hero whose goals are somewhat admirable and understandable, but there is no way to achieve the goal without harming innocent people in the process (at least I don't see how one could). Anyway, the show is entertaining, will keep watching, etc.

Rectify is different from Nikita in that its premise actually isn't very interesting to me. This guy has been in prison (death row) for 20 years for a crime he supposedly didn't commit, then returns to his family and things are awkward. This show will have to rely heavily on the characters' ability to draw the viewer in. I really like the main character's sister and brother, and while I'm kind of on the fence about the mother, I think the actress is doing a great job. We'll see how the show progresses.

The Good Wife is the only show where I quickly felt for and started rooting for the main character. A strong pilot episode indeed. It's been forever since I last watched a courtroom drama, too, so it almost feels fresh again (of course, I've bumped into it in movies and other TV shows regularly even if I haven't been watching actual genre stuff).

Wentworth is an interesting one because it starts sort of showing all the stereotypical sides of a women's prison (weirdos, lesbians, rude fucks), then moves on to flipping that on its head (not all of them are weirdos or rude fucks! One of them has a kid!) and then it gets kind of stereotypical again (violence! shit is serious you guys!). The poor main character gets thrown from one shitty situation to the next. But hey, it was entertaining. Time for episode two later today.

And of the shows I'm continuing... Mad Men is strange in that I have to force myself to watch it these days, but once I start watching it's not bad. I blame Don Draper for making me not want to particularly watch it. He just never changes and it's so boring to me. Next, I finished Breaking Bad's first season and I'd forgotten how much dark humour it has. It just gets so absurd at times that all you can do is laugh. I'll definitely want to have more of this attitude when I start season 2. Dexter, it's sad, but it's almost like I'm only watching it out of loyalty now. The problem is the character Dexter. At this point I'd probably rather watch 48 minutes of Deb ♥ ranting about laundry detergent than bother with more Dexter problems. But I'm determined to watch all of this since I've made it so far and there's only one season coming... Ah and Fringe, it feels a little weird because I'm at a point where there is no OurLivia (only makes sense if you watch Fringe) and I am in love with OurLivia, ack. But hey yeah. I'm curious to eventually see how they wrapped up this story.

Damn, that got much longer than intended.
 
 
Sari
03 July 2013 @ 12:34 pm
So apparently my "tomorrow" is "3 months later". Well, here I'm posting the second part of my Morning Musume single ranking, anyway. Better late than never?

10. Wakuteka Take A Chance - 2012


This is my favourite of the current era songs probably because of its ever changing nature. The bridge consists of four different parts, how often do you see that in a pop song? The parts also flow smoothly from one to the next, which is not easily achieved. The end result is a song that never really gets boring because it's constantly alive, building up to the next climax. Again there are some bot voice effects that I don't care much for, but that's the only issue I have here.

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Sari
28 June 2013 @ 12:32 pm
TV  
I have an endless list of TV series that I've been meaning to watch. And every year, there are more shows that get added to the list when people recommend them. So, let's get some PLANS up in here so I can finally get moving forward haha.

First of all, the shows I've been watching, but fell off somewhere and need to finish catching up with, aka first priority:
ER (been watching this for the past few years starting from ep 1, and I'm now at season 13 ^^)
Dexter
Fringe
Mad Men

The shows I've started watching, but paused after a few episodes, aka second priority:
Breaking Bad
Battlestar Galactica

Then the shows that otherwise feel like ones I should prioritize:
The Sopranos - considered the best TV show by many; not having seen this feels almost criminal
Nikita - It would probably be totally different from any other show I'm watching actionwise, also people who watch it LOVE it
The Good Wife - I really really want to finally start watching this, goddamnit
Wentworth - a new Australian show about a women's prison; feels like a priority because it's new and only 9 episodes so far, so I could quickly catch up. One of my favourite TV shows ever (Bad Girls) was set in a British women's prison, that's why this stood out instantly in recommendations
Rectify - The show is new and I heard it's very good and emotionally torturing, so I should at least check out the pilot soon

Fourth priority:
Southland - someone said it's the best cop show since The Wire, so it tickles my wiggles
Six Feet Under - I remember watching this on and off in my teens; seemed like a unique show
Carnivale
Firefly
Band of Brothers

Last priority, shows that have been praised a lot, but I don't know much about:
Deadwood
Rome
Friday Night Lights
Babylon 5
The Tudors
Wonderfalls
Kings
Dead Like Me
Orphan Black (new show)

Man I have a feeling there are still shows missing from here, too. ANYWAY. I can do this. I made a schedule and once I've caught up with some shows, I can fill up their slots with new ones. Hopefully. Rrraawwwrrr
 
 
Sari
13 April 2013 @ 08:59 pm
Remember when I started listing my favourite Hello! Project songs and never made it to the end?

Yeah this won't hopefully be like that, since I'll be only listing a top 20 of my favourite Morning Musume singles.

Why am I doing this? I happened to be listening to some older tracks the other day and just figured it had been so long since the last time I ranked this stuff that I might as well go for it.

And yeah, Morning Musume is a Japanese idol girl group that has a changing member line-up and has existed for the past 15 or so years. Some of the current members weren't even born yet when Morning Musume was first formed. :D

Let's go...


20. Brainstorming/Kimi Sae Ireba Nanimo Iranai - 2013



Perhaps surprisingly I'm starting with Morning Musume's most recent single (Brainstorming more-so than Kimi Sae; I haven't listened to Kimi Sae much yet. This single is a double A side). Actually, the single hasn't even been released yet. I love the optimistic message of the song and the strength that I'm sensing from these petite little ladies. XD When the music video first came out I think I was saying how I'm ready to move to a non-dubstep kind of sound since MM has been doing this a lot recently, but I suppose I've gotten over it and find the song quite catchy. Ranking it this high might be a bit blasphemous towards some older singles, but really, comparing new songs to old ones is always difficult because new songs are always fresher, yet older songs have the nostalgia value... And now that I've mentioned this, I won't need to discuss this again in the ranking. Either way, I can see myself listening to this song a lot in the future because it's quite cool, as Gandalf would say.

As a side note, I love that Masaki's line is "I feel sorry for those afraid to engage with others" as Masaki has been so fearless in approaching anyone, including someone like Reina who is not only a senpai to her, but one that has traditionally kept to herself a lot. But Masaki is just so open and full of love and life that even Reina can't escape that.

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Hey that wraps up the first part of the ranking! Maybe I'll do the rest tomorrow... :D
 
 
Sari
12 March 2013 @ 11:49 am
Ugh I got sick!

Three weeks at work non-stop, not a single day off, then on the last day of the three-week craziness, which also happened to be Sunday and thus a double pay day, I got fever and had to go home after two hours. And then I got blasted with the flu. What I have now kind of reminds of sinusitis because the slime is sooo intense like it was when I had sinusitis in the past.

During all this I should be preparing a 15-page essay to be handed in for commentary by next Monday, but I can't focus on my topic at all because my ears are stuck and there's goo, goo everywhere.

And I should be working again tonight, too. 8)

I have to call my boss about whether I'm ok to go to work today or not, but I'm not even sure. I mean, we have that strange culture where everyone has to go to work even if they have the flu from hell, which to me makes no sense especially in a customer service position because you just end up spreading germs everywhere. I'm quite convinced that I'm sick right now because one of my coworkers had been coughing & having other cold symptoms for the past three weeks - so should I go back and get more people sick, too? I don't get it. COULD I go to work today and do my duties? Yeah, I probably could, the same way people have to force themselves to do things now and then. But I'd probably be quite out of it, and about as energetic as a sloth.

Whoa, I think my other ear just snapped open. Whoaaaa.

Anyway yeah.

Ah, called my boss, he agreed with me instantly. LOL. All I needed to say was that I no longer had fever, but I'd got the flu. "Yeah just stay at home another day." That's good. But now despite my inability to focus I'll have to try and work on the damn paper. AAaaahh. I already feel horrible that I didn't do anything useful yesterday, even if I wasn't in a state to do anything useful anyway.